I'm Not A Believer, not today.

When it comes to religion or Christianity, I'm sure my opinion will offend a lot of people because as mentioned in the title, I'm not a believer. I think I will be one in the future but being a skeptic and a person who enjoys logical reasoning, I can never really see myself believing in any religion. When the day I have a religion comes, it is probably due to commitment. I want my future spouse to be happy, hence enrolling myself in the religion she is in.

A kid has been kidnapped about a week ago in Malaysia, here's the news.
http://www.timeslive.co.za/world/2012/05/03/kidnapped-nayati-moodliar-recovered-in-malaysia

And he's been found, I'm glad and happy for his family. I am unsure how the family feels like to have a family member missing. They dread whenever the phone rings. As soon as he has been found this morning, I see comments such as Thank God and I felt like this

I am sure God has something to do with this abduction. God wanted to test his family's strength and perseverance. That was sarcasm, obviously. Why not thank the people who have helped by giving out fliers, sharing on facebook (this time around, I don't blame people for being keyboard warriors because Social Networks play an important role), giving donation (which they don't need, study in MKIS still need donation meh?) and so on. What about the police force? They are no CSI or FBI but I am sure they did their job, whether professionally or not. I'm really puzzled to see those comments. He has answered your prayers for this boy, you barely know and you thank him. How has the almighty has helped in locating him? He has been released because of ransom has been paid (that's what reported by theStar) and not because God went to save him from the kidnappers. I understand, people thank God because heir prayers have been answered. It's good that you show that gratitude. Ya, god has certainly helped in numerous ways in saving Nayati. It's a miracle that he has been found, safely. I wonder what you will people say when the outcome is the other way round, eg. He's been found dead or became a sex slave. God has other plans for Nayati ey? Good grief. Here I am, criticizing other people's beliefs when I myself am an atheist. I do it because I can, HAHAHA. I believe every religion is good and each one serves the right purpose but only the people made it seem bad. Religion has come a long way, after so many years of manipulation. People want power so they manipulate history and rules. God gives you faith but there is really no need to thank him every now and then because you are who you are today because of you yourself, and not anyone else. That's easy for me to say it, because I am not a believer, not today.

Dear Parents

Call me useless, call me selfish, call me whatever you like, call me a rat, call me a pest, in the end of the day I am still your son. I wished I had better parents, who don't. When it comes to certain things, I wish they'd really understand. Yesterday I was trying to help my mum. I was going to fetch her to the house that we will be renting out. Well, she informed me the fucking last minute but it's fine. Then the plan got cancelled, I also went out to have a drink but only to have a drink instead of meeting up with a friend. It's fine. I got home and saw her going out. I offered to pick her up instead of bothering dad. She looked pissy and I ASKED HER WHY DIDN'T SHE FUCKING CALL ME? SHE HAS A FUCKING CELLPHONE THAT CAN CALL but she didn't call me. She thought it'd disturb me. I honestly love thoughtful people but IT NEVER HURTS TO ASK. ASK AND YE SHALL RECEIVE. We live in the 21st century and I believe that if you don't ask, you will never receive. Too bad la, it's too hard for you to ask. You don't even apologize, thinking that there's nothing you need to say. I know la you're my mum and you're always right but I cannot live with that attitude. You both are such perfectionists. I declare the both of you have failed as parents. It's my circumstances. It's a pity but I shall not gain anyone's sympathy. I can go on for days, blaming my parents' mistakes in raising me or us, the 3 siblings but what would it look like? I'd look like a sore loser. In fact, I already am. I don't know how my life's gonna be. Suddenly, I am so lost. Wait, I've always been lost. I have no directions in life, thus I am probably going to fail in life. I only dream but I don't plan shits. Even when I plan, it always fail.

Religions

I'm a lost soul. I don't have one and I don't need any, for now at least. BUT BUT, I do follow a few beliefs.